Possessed..

Today is a cold cold day. I’m currently in school, but have no motivation to do anything other than write what I’m feeling. I don’t know what I feel actually. Lately, I’ve been thinking, what the heck am I going to do with my life? Am I going to grow up and get a career? I mean graduation is right around the corner, what next? I’m very nervous about the future. I honestly am. Will I make it? Will I succeed? I have a lot of flaws I need to work out by the time I enter the real world. The “working for everything I have” world. The “I don’t care if your late your fired” world. The “wondering, will this be all I’ll amount to?” world. The “how can I make things better” world. And last but not least, “the will I survive on my own” world. I’m going to name my flaws; 1. I DO NOT know how to save money. Honestly, the only reason I have money saved right now, is because someone else has it holding it, otherwise, it would have been spent. 2. Sometimes (most) I cannot motivate myself into doing something I know is good for me. Really, school is so hard, not the lessons or classes the getting up early to go. 3. I look for the easy way out. I try and find out how I can maneuver through the difficult part. 4. I’m afraid to do the “big” things alone. What if I mess it all up? What if I cannot learn to fix the mistakes?
I know it’s not good to point out flaws and your thinking “look at the bright side” but honestly, is there a “bright side?” Are you as a person reading this thinking, “Dang, that’s true?” Because honestly, the government has us trained so well to live in these apartments or homes that are basically little boxes. They train us so well to discriminate, be envious, and go around life thinking “I wish I had this or that.” Not to be preaching, but, come on, I think I would have been perfect if I were living the way Adam and Eve were; Naked with the whole land to eat. Damn snake. I have 10 weeks to go to become an official adult. It’s like everyone is out for themselves. For instance, banks, when you don’t have any more money in your card (debit or credit), they let you spend it anyways, and then when you check a bank statement, it says, “you are insufficient $68.30 from a purchase at Frys Food and Drug store, and now owe $98.30, thanks if you have any questions or concerns, call. Have a nice day, Bank of America.” I would have been fine with the “were friends, take this fruit.” Or how about your cell phone bill, when you have no more minutes, they let you talk anyways, and in the little fine print of the contract It says, “.50 per minute after the first 5 minutes of miss-minute-use.” I would have been fine with just going and getting a can, putting a string to it and attaching the other can to the other side. At least that was fun. Gay. I know I may be rambling, but oh emm gee, we are so accustom to the life the government has made for us, were too blind to see that were possessed. Jesus, I hate this. My mind wanders from one thing to the other. It leads off into its own world. Then that world leads to the next. Life doesn’t make sense. Well this is my thoughts, tell me yours.
But nevertheless, I love my 4 bloggers. Thanks for the ear.

Oh yeah lets do a funny video:
Since I’m at school, I cant post one, but go to Youtube, then type in Huevos Bongos Trilogy, and look at that. Very funny. If you get easily offended, then please don’t.